People
somehow asked me about what I want to be, what I think about
me or even who I think I am.
It takes years for me to answer such questions. I know I maybe am not an expert
to describe things even about myself but as I know, I know what
exactly things I
have been through and what life truly is. Then I expect people will get to know
me. Not from things I
bring to the table but from things that I defined as things and they are called
a cup of coffee.
LIFE. Something that is very common to pin down. When we begin to describe it, it feels like we travel to the mars and back and back again and back-back-again and again never ends. It is even harder when we find out that secret and logic are friends, it does not matter if the secrets are not always logically defined. The more we try to crush them, the less possibility they will unfriend one and another. Seriously, it is not the thing. The thing is us. You and I, you and she, she and he, we and they or whatever it is. We sometimes hate someone called best friend and most of time sick of bad friend a.k.a enemy but somehow our enemy is our best friend. It does not make sense, what is actually friend or enemy? My enemy is friend of my friend’s friend. So why cannot we be friends? Or why our friends not claimed same individual as an enemy? Too many whys. How does it feel? Well, that is life. A time when the questions of why are favorite and how and what follow.
Life is not always in the
"X" axis (Read: Flat). There are
always salty and sweet. Like a cup of hot coffee in the afternoon, life would
be beautiful when everything is placed at the appropriate time and in the right
portions. We have to believe in ourselves when putting our own sugar in coffee;
do not be afraid of sweetness, which is why taking risks is sometimes necessary
in life.
Sometimes, we felt the hot
sting on the tongue when tasting our own coffee. Everyone has their own way
to express it. So is life, everyone has his/her own way to be against problems
in life. No need to get upset. Do not be too sad. What happened happens, but it
is only the theory. Practically people want to rewind times, fix things, regret
the holes and cry over no-s. You know what is funny, people make their own
theory and break it practically, such a waste but they called it human being.
Agreed. Well I have to agree
even when I am not. People
keep thinking about what people say, I don’t want look
like [beep] in public, they won’t do the same, they won’t like it. Again, agreed. I
keep thinking the same things but why bother? We are even different to any other
individuals. Oh really? But it ain’t easy to screw people thought or public
opinion. Why we cannot be like a coffee in a cup, they will not argue when
another cup get more sugar or they do but we cannot hear its voice. I don’t
know but let us get through this. People say words, we do too, people think
things, we do too, people do what they have to do more than what they want to
do, we even more do too. What really matter is ourselves. Get to know
ourselves. Try to forgive ourselves. It is that hard but again hard depends on
us not him not her not them. Accept the bitterness or sweetness but no worry if
it tastes not right at least we learn something. Without the bad days, we never
know how to be glad to have the good ones.
Satisfied is time when we can
spend our coffee without getting a bitter taste of the dregs. In life we do not
apply this coffee theory. Satisfaction is not always a happy ending but also
the bad ones that we can frame on the wall and say oh I experienced this and
no more. We call it hope. Hope to change and hope to move on. Question. Do they
really exist? People who consciously
say yes! to enjoy the bitterness of
life?. If there is maybe his/her life is so much sugar or maybe they have no
sugar stocks so frankly say yes is the only one option left. Then what? We can
still grocery shop or something. There is no one and only option. We can make
options if we do want it, if we are clear to see it.
I think I write a lot random
things like jelly tots. But note this one. There is no excuse when we have to
interfere a cup of coffee belongs to someone else with our own recipe. Because
it is a cup of your coffee, enjoy it! While this is mine.
Don’t forget your morning
coffee!
Rahmat Arif Febriyanto
