Hei!

This is a late post actually, and ya i made a new cover video.

I sang Skyscraper by demi Lovato, i posted it on my youtube 3 days ago..

and hope you like it guys :)

xoxo

Hipster Alert

it feels like a perfect night to dress up like hipster
but wait, im not going to tell you about hipster, scroll down to know more :)

Actually, in this post i'd like to tell you how boring to wait

'till i packed my belongings in my backpack

'till i read a same newspaper five times in a row

'till i tied my shoelaces six times

and i was so tired, and extremely bored. and there was no one picked me up. 

'till i decided to walk on my way alone.

Sorry, i just can't handled it, and i hate to wait

and happy weekend everyone :)

Don't waste your time just for waiting! There is still a long road ahead!

1st Day a.k.a Senior Year

Hei out there!
wats up?
lol

"How is the atmosphere?"
"Cool."
"How cool?,"
"Dunno. not much different. Just realized that i'm getting older. uh!"
"That's good. U grow buddy!"
"Hows ur first day?"
"It should not be my first day of this year, but i make it earlier,"
"why?"
"nothin to do. Suggest now!"
"What? mm take a rest!"
"fine."
"Click."
"Click."

something above? It is the conversation between a and b via cellphone.

----- 4th of July 2013
time time time time time. It feels like my very first time in high school but it is my first day in my last year of high school.
Happy? ya. Sad? not really (means: a little bit ya)
As i asked my friends, some of them said that they hardly realized that they are the eldest in high school now.
So do i.
I feel like, i stuck on my age and forever 16 or 17.
mental system matter? no. i'm getting ready but the time.
There are a dozen of things to do. to be sure that i will graduate and the important thing is a marathon of exams. Awaiting!
Hei readers i came to my dormitory this afternoon and wish all the things work well.
Don't just read please. wish me luck and pray for me :)
For the whole pupils, i mean students intake 2011.

Wish the success for the exams, university requirement, and the brand-new-life of school. :)
xoxo.

If u got something, Eat it well !

Have you ever heard about tension improve your skill in writing ? ternyata bener banget lo.
Some of people talk about 21st century and its attributes, why? some reasons? what? let's find out!.
Membedah pola pikir manusia itu emang gak segampang kita bilang a terus dibalik jadi b, but somehow, kita punya standart buat nilai pola pikir mana yang emang udah bener, perlu dibenerin, atau yang udah soaked.Parahnya lagi bicara soal pola pikir orang lain itu sedikit susah, kenapa karena emang pola yang ada itu yang nyiptain orang itu sendiri,

Pernah kita denger soal gimana sih adapted, hubungannya apa? wow banyak. Kalau kita gak bisa sama yang namanya adaptasi, kita kudu bener-bener kenal sama yang namanya kicked, kicked dari mana sih? *excuse me, social life (read: unwanted, ignored). Balik lagi ke konsep dasar hidup kita di dunia yang katanya bulet ini, ada sebab kemudian muncul akibat, sama banget kalau kita gak bisa sama yang namanya interaksi dalam siklis timbal balik kehidupan sosial, ya akibatnya udah pasti kesebelah kiri a.k.a negatif.

Sebenarnya yang dijadikan soal adalah saat seseorang sebagai individu berusaha untuk eksis dan hadir di dunia ini sebagai skill tunggal tanpa mengenal sharing, tular-menular atau apalah itu namanya. Jawabannya gimana? pikiran kolot. Kolot itu gak mesti think one step behind loh, tapi orang yang sudah act like can do anything, but did nothing itu yang kadar kolotnya akut. Yang namanya cyclic life pasti ada feedback dong, gimana pun ga bisa dihindari, mau menghindar? silahkan. hutan masih longgar.

Wah think big boleh banget, apalagi feel big penting banget tuh buat pondasi ke-pe-de-an kita, tapi ya seimbang dong dengan bukti dan hasil, kalo hasilnya nothing ya apa bedanya sama tong. Kenceng banget tuh kalo ngomong tapi nol. Sarannya sih ga usah muluk-muluk, cukup sadar dimana kita hidup gitu aja sih, selama masih punya sesuatu gak ada salahnya buat do at least something. Daripada gak sama sekali, dan belum belum udah bilang No, itu malah bikin orang yang sadar gak sadar ngimpact banget jadi kayak, this person is such a virus or a waste as hell. kan ga enak banget kalau dinilai eksis enggaknya kita itu gak ngaruh banget, means: kalo kita udah lepas dari cyclic life. Terus mau kemana? bikin koma sendiri diujung statement? siap siap aja buat a bunch of LOLs.

Baik banget kalau bisa menghadirkan diri sebagai sosok yang visible dan mau gak mau guna.

I've always wanted to go

"...Baby I'm from New York!
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of,
There's nothing you can't do
 Now you're in New York!..."

Wait. Hold on. Before you judge me or something. This is totally different with nationalism, well i talk about something different. Again, something different :)

Talking about my last year in high school, reminded me of my dream to go to New York. My close friends already knew this is due to broadway, some brands (lol), skyscrapers, and glee ... but wait it's not about NYADA, of course I know that NYADA doesn't really exist or just fiction in glee. The rest is this is about my future education.

There is my dream university out there, and it's located in New York, it's called Columbia University. I really want to study journalism and business there. When i read this Our faculty, a diverse group of award-winning professionals, work closely with students to provide a foundation for our graduates to become leaders in a fast-changing news media, it makes me like okay i want it so bad, i have to go. it's about journalism school out there, this thing can be my stepping stone to be a part of Fox.

I have a silly idea, that by the time I get married and have child, I want to move to new york when my child is 4 years old. I don't know why it should be so, but I just wanted to, and it's only ambition, It can be changed.

When i see my seniors graduated two days ago, i just thought that there are a bunch of things i need to do before my graduation next year. I wish i have accapted by one of my dream-university in Indonesia before the graduation day. I can achieve some "goods" again in my final year, and graduate from high school without regrets, and i can hear my family and my close people say "I'm proud of u" again. 


Wish Allah always by my side and help my every single effort, and set happy days for me and family, also my friends. amien, :)

Time Out.

I don't know why, but it was always like this. When i close to the last year, surely the time will be felt very quickly. Like yesterday was the first year. I'm totallly a messed right now. It's really hard to deal with my feeling. yes, i'm happy because after this will be the college or university time. But just list all the things i have to pass-through in order to happily end this year and done with all the stuffs without regrets.

It little bit makes me freak out or something, but wait it doesn't mean i can't believe on myself. I just get shocked by the shocking time lol. The time was too rush, and such a hurry. It's hard to figure out when the condition talks about t.i.m.e, it's something out of our control and can be worst if we don't use it wisely.

Talking about final year or 12th grade, i will make a list consists of things i need to do, i have to do, and i want to do. Of course i don't want to be a jerk in this final year. I'll try my best to gain all my dreams and to actualize all my plans. I will leave my unimportant or time-wasted stuffs during this final year.

Anyway, i was little bit confused when i first wrote this feature and put the title. Why Time Out? i think it because this is my really final year after preschool, kindergarten, elementary school, and junior high school. It's such an exciting thing to realize that no longer for me for a new life. Colleger's life, thats so cool! can't hardly wait for that. Hopefully it can bring more funny stuffs than my life in senior high. 

Mmm... honestly i write this feature in midnight, it's about 11.30pm and sorry if maybe my imagination about this topic is messed up or something, but i'm still exciting for the brand new life after high school lol. I think all my friends will heve the different thoughts about this. And ya, this is my own :p

Dear Ayik

How's life ? How's your 17-years-old-days? several months left for your birthday, it's about two months, that's so cool!, but you know what i used to wish you all the best, and i hope you always try to be the better me all the time.

mm.... anyway, how's your 12th grade year ? is that good ? i hope so. I believe you always try your best to face all the exams and "the stuffs". Please, i beg you, don't ever look back!. Just deal with your upcoming future. Look, i'm the person who know you much than anyone else. Forget all the pains!, you'll be paid for all your efforts.

I know that several things darkened your days this pas 8 or 9 months, but who knows the reasons of God to gave you those kind of challenges, You'll be a big man soon, a big man with all your dreams come true and God pays your efforts. I trust you more than my past. You'll graduate from high school and continue your study in your favorite university. Don't miss your whole-life-dream to go to New York and get a chance to study in Yale.

What you need to do now is keep your own coffee (red: life) and don't let anyone put some unknown stuffs there, don't let them interfare your own if it will make you mess. If you're now a messed after all that you've been through, just figure out a to find the pieces of the puzzle to fit your life again.

I think too much now, as you know i'm over thinker. So ah, i need to end this letter, and sum this up with your reply when your dreams one by one come true. I'm glad to talk to myself in 8 or 9 months later. Again, this is unusual for me to write on myself but that's so cool! lol. Oke, maybe now i have to end this letter, thanks for give me some pieces of your crowd-scheduled-time. I will always wish you for the best. Good luck with your all stuffs, see ya in our bright future, (amien...)

From deeply thoughts and feelings,
Ayik in the past

besties !

Miss 'em so bad !
It has been almost 2 months since the last holidays.
I miss my hometown, my house and the people and all my besties. Since i went to a boarding school in other town, i got the distance issues !
My days with my best friends are always be the good times. And ya, i don't really care about the friendship tales told by drama-movies, because i already have one there which probably be the best that i ever had.
What i miss the most is the time, the real quality times. They are kind of down-to-earth kids! They always have their times, They used to release their silly laughs and always made my day.

Let me to to tell you about them.
they are some of my besties,
from left to right.
Ebiet, Noby, Renny, and me

Ebiet.
is a kind of boy who addicted with design graphics. So do i, actually. But he has become an expert, and i still need to learn so much. He is also Afgan's fan. Afgan used to drive this boy crazy! lol.

Noby.
Trust me, she's absolutely cool! A basketball-girl-player. With a boyish style, she's so funny and she gave us the best jokes sometimes. She's also a dancer.

Renny.
She's the most fashionable girl around us. She has some brand(ed) stuffs. But, the note is all the people have to be aware to be close with this girl in tense-condition. Because, she will turn as a wild-kid, she's easy to be panic and think too much all the times. But she's the most humble girl i ever met.

Opi'.
She's the one who wore black t-shirt.
She's a dancer, pretty cool girl. Ya, she used to talk much than us. But she's the most kind-hearted girl. She sometimes invites us to have lunch for free. lol. She's also a shopping line owner and we still can't hardly wait for the disc. lol. (Again) no. we are friends not because of that, it just because she's nice and we have several things to think around.

This is us! with a kinda silly laughs-out-loud.  >>

oh ya, actually there's one more. A boy named Amsyah.

Amsyah.
He's a boy who has obsession to become a professional photographer and sometimes he used us as his trial objects. He doesn't like to be captured, but he love to captures something or someone else. That's why he rarely appears in our pictures.

And here we go
<<<
Amsyah.

Can't hardly wait for this coming holidays.

Can't hardly wait to tell them a bunch of stories. 

And you guys are the most cool besties i ever knew ! 

Thanks for the time,

And, sorry readers, if this is too personal. lol.

But i bet u have this kind of best friends as well. 

So just keep them by your side :)   
See ya, i'll be home in this coming middle of April !

nothing crushes us.

"nothing crushes us" Bridge to Terabithia

No regrets ! for being a best friend

I've watched several movies about friendship, and honestly all the endings of the movies are always easily predicted by me That's why, it's hard to choose which movie that really impressed me. And when I asked my roommate, he reminded me of a movie which I didn't watch because I chose another movie two years ago. it's called Bridge to Terabithia.

 Synopsis : 

This movie (2007) tells us about a couple of  ten-year-old kids, Jess Aarons and Leslie Burke.The story was based on the original novel, and the story was truely happened to the childhood of the author's son. That was the another reason for tears if u watch this movie.

Jesse is a fifth-grade and live in Lark Creek, Virginia where he meets new student named Leslie Burke and they soon become a best friend. Both of them dont have any friends in their school.

One day after school, Leslie dares Jesse to run as fast as they can 'till they reach a river in forest and find  abandoned tree house and a broken down truck on the other side. And after all, they create a new world named Terabithia by Leslie, it's kind of fantasy world where Jesse and Leslie become its king and queen. They do many things in Terabithia, such as repairing the tree house.

The following day, Jesse is invited by his teacher to visit a museum in downtown, and he decides not to invite Leslie to come. When Jesse in museum, Leslie goes to Terabithia by herself, and she gets accident and drown because the rope is broken as the rope is too old and the river is flooding. Jesse's parent guess that jesse is drowned as well as he didn't tell that he goes with his teacher.

Jesse's parent is glad when Jesse comes home, and Jesse gets shock when he know about the accident and Leslie passed away. He regrets all the time because he didn't ask Leslie to come with him, and when Jesse and his family come to Leslie's house as a respect. Leslie's dad tells him that Leslie loved him, and it's not his fault. 

After all, Jesse tries to re-imagine Terabithia and builds a bridge with a sign "Nothing Crushes Us" across the creek to enter Terabithia. And invites his sister, May Belle as the princess.

I'd love this part :

for sure, this movie will drive you crazy or probably insane ! who don't want a best friend like that in this world. We can share everything to them, our shoulder to tear all the pains, our laughs and many things..

This movie consists of a bunch of inspirational scenes, that makes me have to keep my true friends, and feel glad to still have them by my side right now. Or maybe i have to change several-bad-things in me to be a best friend for my best friends. 

 Most of all, i'd adore this scene ! 

Brand New Month

Dear February,

Thanks for your coming, Im glad to see u again in this 2013-nu year.
Of course, as a normal teeny boy i have to wish u for the best

ya, i dont want all bad things that happened in last month or last year, close to myself for twice.

Please be my friend, february lol. I dare u to be nice to me and all of my beloved-people (my parents, sister, family, friends, teachers)
I know u can be nice. amien... help me to achieve all of the good and even the best things :)

Pleasure,
Ayik

Mirror and Reflection (2012 - 2013)

In a previous post I have been told that I'm not the type of person who likes to make resolutions for New Year. But I tend to make corrections and try not to make the same mistakes in the new year. I'm not the one who let all of the things flow. But I just want to live happily and regardless as long as I've tried.

I have some plans and desires in 2013, I do not know is more inclined to include a resolution or correction again. Maybe you can help to determine.

Many people describe life as a wheel, sometimes above and sometimes below. There is also someone say that life is like oranges, if you can't definitely take or choose the right one you will get the sour. I now the world doesn't lack of philosophers or poets. But I feel, life does not mean how we think it, but how we feel it, especially feel like we proud for being who we are . Life is not like a shirt that has the size, life can be for whatever we want and expect. Therefore, now I feel I need a plan to start a new life.

Of course I've learned a lot from last year and now I feel that I'm already on the right track and I had to through the track by believing in myself and started to fulfill all  my plans.

Here me go. list of my plans in 2013 that made up because of everything happened last year and these plans will continue even later was no longer 2013:

1. Be happily ever after with my family.
2. Be a good son for my father and a good brother for my little sister
3. Remedials. I'd love to come back as junior high school again, never got remedial and always got score above the standart. I will study harder to gain this.
4. Good Exam Scores. I will study harder for this (again).
5. Achieve more achievements. Especially for my recent competitions, journalist competition again. Wish me luck.
6. Continue my study to my favorite university (UGM).
7. Continue study abroad.
8. Improve my voice,
9. Do some covers
10. Release my very first outfit post.
11. Be more resilient to face defeat and stay humble when get victory
12. Be nice to everyone.
13. Regretless. because i believe everything happened for a reason.
14. Be positive.
15. Be true to who am i.

That's all. By the time run my plans for the better me and my life will increase by itself

Don't Want An Ending

"...I don't wanna fall out
 But we're all out of time (Is this over?)
 (Don't want an ending)..."

Talking about last year, in 2012 it was like opening an old photo albums that have been put in boxes in a warehouse. And all that albums were selected which should be removed and saved.

The beginning of 2012  was a nice day because it is still the same as ever. In 2012 I learned so much about life. Especially before stepping on the end of the year. I feel so me at the beginning of 2012. I feel that it should have a pleasant feeling.

January. I could say it was fun with knick knacks of new year eve and resolutions. Actually I'm not the type of person who likes to make resolutions but when someone asks about it, I started it up. And the most typical of this month is the sound of trumpets, fireworks and being around the family. That's sweet!.


February. I was tired of drama and i was tired with february. Why?  I had too much bullied, cheated or whatever what it is called. Which obviously it causes resentment but that's also fun, The february of 2012 was my 5th real birthday. It isn't sucks to be me but i just proud of who am i and how i was born and as who. How I was bullied? First, a dozen of my friends in the class caught me at gym class and tied me in a palm tree and threw me with flour mixture, something like a mush. And i can't imagine the texture. Second, My housemates were pranking me by taking my laptop and hid in one of the suitcases in the room and well at the time I really need my lovely laptop for blog competition. But technically I like the way they celebrate a special and rare-day of my life. And honestly it made ​​me cry a bit much. Don't laugh at me for a second after you read this. 


March. There was nothing special going on in March, but there were exams that kept me busy. Especially midterm. I was able to control my days for exam preparation at that time. And finally I get a pretty similar marks with marks that I expected.


April. April mop didn't apply in my life. Why? there was no reason for me to do so. So, there was still nothing special happened, exception for examinations and minor issues which are reasonable.

Owned Oen's Day

I just used my saturday-not really mornin to walkin around Malang Town with Wicak and Dayin and hanged out in a very well-known ice cream spot. But ya, we had to deal with the limit-times, we just had around an hour to walkin around. So ya, we used our time little-bit-well. Just thought that there's no rush lol.

This place gave me a very nice impression since i entered the venue, went to order, and chose my seat. Really high recommended for vintage-seekers. i really doted by the atmosphere, felt like i was in dutch-colonial-era, the properties, interior and even the waiters' costume with their white long blazer and classic headgear, hardly vintage!.

Don't mind to advertising something but this is truely my sense :). Another plus-point that made us heavy to leave the seat is the jazzy and classic performance by the band. That was cool and catched my eyes, so my ears.

This was a silly expressions but i just felt free to post those lol :D oh ya, you know what? when we enjoyed our ice cream, we met with a sweet couple of grandma and grandpa, maybe they are around 50-something years old and they looked very sweet and enjoying their own old life, a kind of fortunate couple.

Ya. we ordered 3 banana splits and each banana split had 3 scops of ice cream to taste in different flavor surely. And i loved the chocolate one, not really sugary but tasty. And this not really charged our wallet. :)

And as the closing before we leave, we filled a questionnaire. That was good idea as buyers' media to talk and tell somethin. Inspiration to form and own a business pals :)

Warm Hugs for DECEMBER

Ya allah. I just got a challenging moments from you.
That's fine. But, just gimme the strength. I don't want this weakness.
Make the sincere-concept cling on my mind and heart-beat,
so i can face and deal with the heart-breaker problems

I ask you for a better everything in this december and forever.
Trust me, i'll try my best, but make me believe on my destiny.
Give my mom the most beautiful place there..
Tell her that i, merdy and ayah missed her so muchhh
Hopefully we can meet her again someday,
I wont forget all the moments, when she hugged me
And keep my father and my little sister well
Give me and my lil-sister an ability to make our parents proud of us
My family deseve their happiness
Help me in exam also.. Give me the right track
"Thanks Allah for everything, Sorry if i asked you much,"
Ayik and Family

-Vampire-

If i will be vampire, lol. I just can't stop laugh-out-loud when write this post.
It didn't mean i have no idea to write about this topic, but honestly i'm inspired by Twillight saga, Vampire Diaries serial and when i was tumblr-ing and i found Marilyn Manson's song "If I Was Your Vampire" :)

Vampire known by their charisma of darkness. That's cool.
Yes. the views of vampire has changed. First vampire depicted with a glamour castle, long dress and royal robes. But now the 21st century vampire portrayed in a suit and cool clothes to show that they are not left behind by civilizations and they present around us.
If i will be a vampire, I will do many things that no human being can do. Every vampire has their own skill and ability, they can see the future, the past and read people's minds.
If i will be a vampire, I probably would never have regrets. why? because i was able to fix all my mistakes next year, five years again, even decades longer. lol.
If i will be a vampire, I'd decided to be a vegetarian vampire, because ya how's the taste to drink human blood as food?
but the most importantly, if i will be a vampire, maybe I will not get separated from my family, because if i will be a vampire, of course, before me, my family was a family of vampires. lol :D
just take care then... haha

A Math Geek //

If i am a math. geek, I certainly won't feel a deep burden when calculating.

All formulas will feel like block notation which i should memorize it with cheerful tones.
How happy, if I am a math geek, 100 on the report card for math lessons will not be difficult.
I'll just nodded in agreement, sign that i really understand what math teachers say,
if i am a math geek. x and y will just like friends for me, maybe. Maybe i will talk in phytagoras formula language. lol.
It named addicted. If i am a math geek, surely i will sit in the front seats and always be the first to raised my hand when the teacher asked.
How happy! if i am a math geek, I'm probably going to be the most presentable students throughout the school, because statistics formulas and laws thaught me to be a melancholy, how to sort everything from small to large, or put it all on the right axis.
If i am a math geek, i will never complain to describe algebra problems. And maybe i will be the most careful, cautious, or somethin because probability chapter prepared me to be like that, smart to read a possibility that will happen.
Or maybe if i am a math geek, i won't sigh when math-hours began and math teachers bring practice-paper-questions that are nearly a dozen. hahh
But it all if i am a math geek. In fact I am still a victim of math. lol. why victim? Ya. Because i have to turn my brain to right or left, up and down, to find my own answer. *yawn*.
Okay, Just, If i am a math geek

If i were lyrics. {Lyrical}

"Lyrics (in singular form lyric) are a set of words that make up a song, usually consisting of verses and choruses.....The meaning of lyrics can either be explicit or implicit. Some lyrics are abstract, almost unintelligible, and, in such cases, their explication emphasizes form, articulation, meter, and symmetry of expression....." Uncle google said.

Many of you might ask when reading the title of this post, why should lyrics?
Have you ever feel like a human with The Least freedom in the world? if yes, you need to know if i ever felt that. It feels like you can't breathe even though there are tons of oxygen around you. lol.

That's why I want to be lyrics.
Lyrics are the freest element and beautiful composition in this world.
Lyrics have too many rights to argue. Even so, there is no one to protest lyrics. Why? Because lyrics argue in their own way, every their single words accompanied by beautiful tone, pitch and rythm that can make your vein drain more blood smoothly.

{If i were lyrics}
I'm going to comment on anything that doesn't fit with me. There will be no people protesting me back or hurted by my comments because I commented to that things with my beauty one and a half octave and an irreversible rhyme. cool!
People will just give me a standing ovation when I was protesting them, talk to them (i don't know whether it will be bad or good). They have been addicted to the instruments that accompany me, and forget about me (lyrics)Ya. I understood. being invisible is sometimes unpleasant. But, So what? if i were lyrics, i would much fine. Everyone will adore me, and I just gave them letters a-z which I create randomly, and they loved it.
Again. If i were lyrics. I would not be ashamed to cry in public, laughing out loud in a crowded place, saying: "I love someone" in the middle of the city, or saying: "I hate someone" in front of the someone. Because they will still adore me.
And. If i were lyrics. I would be very grateful to make friend with music (notes, rhythm, instruments), thanks for always with me to face and deal with the fals, the biggest problem in my life.

Nov. Spring

Begin with :) (a smile). Ya today i'll continue my Spring Project

Why the pic above must be a dream catcher ?, bcos my writing related with my dreams

This November Spring will tell you more about myself,

who i am, what i want to be, up to... If i were -something. lol.

hope you pals like it ! :)

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BIAS

Just wait for my nu project on my new-est blog Classy Gazette.

It will in bahasa, ya so, just visit here.
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