A Cup of Coffee 0.2

People somehow asked me about what I want to be, what I think about me or even who I think I am. It takes years for me to answer such questions. I know I maybe am not an expert to describe things even about myself but as I know, I know what exactly things I have been through and what life truly is. Then I expect people will get to know me. Not from things I bring to the table but from things that I defined as things and they are called a cup of coffee.

LIFE. Something that is very common to pin down. When we begin to describe it, it feels like we travel to the mars and back and back again and back-back-again and again never ends. It is even harder when we find out that secret and logic are friends, it does not matter if the secrets are not always logically defined. The more we try to crush them, the less possibility they will unfriend one and another. Seriously, it is not the thing. The thing is us. You and I, you and she, she and he, we and they or whatever it is. We sometimes hate someone called best friend and most of time sick of bad friend a.k.a enemy but somehow our enemy is our best friend. It does not make sense, what is actually friend or enemy? My enemy is friend of my friend’s friend. So why cannot we be friends? Or why our friends not claimed same individual as an enemy? Too many whys. How does it feel? Well, that is life. A time when the questions of why are favorite and how and what follow.

Life is not always in the "X" axis (Read: Flat). There are always salty and sweet. Like a cup of hot coffee in the afternoon, life would be beautiful when everything is placed at the appropriate time and in the right portions. We have to believe in ourselves when putting our own sugar in coffee; do not be afraid of sweetness, which is why taking risks is sometimes necessary in life.

Sometimes, we felt the hot sting on the tongue when tasting our own coffee. Everyone has their own way to express it. So is life, everyone has his/her own way to be against problems in life. No need to get upset. Do not be too sad. What happened happens, but it is only the theory. Practically people want to rewind times, fix things, regret the holes and cry over no-s. You know what is funny, people make their own theory and break it practically, such a waste but they called it human being. Agreed. Well I have to agree even when I am not. People keep thinking about what people say, I don’t want look like [beep] in public, they won’t do the same, they won’t like it. Again, agreed. I keep thinking the same things but why bother? We are even different to any other individuals. Oh really? But it ain’t easy to screw people thought or public opinion. Why we cannot be like a coffee in a cup, they will not argue when another cup get more sugar or they do but we cannot hear its voice. I don’t know but let us get through this. People say words, we do too, people think things, we do too, people do what they have to do more than what they want to do, we even more do too. What really matter is ourselves. Get to know ourselves. Try to forgive ourselves. It is that hard but again hard depends on us not him not her not them. Accept the bitterness or sweetness but no worry if it tastes not right at least we learn something. Without the bad days, we never know how to be glad to have the good ones.

Satisfied is time when we can spend our coffee without getting a bitter taste of the dregs. In life we do not apply this coffee theory. Satisfaction is not always a happy ending but also the bad ones that we can frame on the wall and say oh I experienced this and no more. We call it hope. Hope to change and hope to move on. Question. Do they really exist? People who consciously say yes! to enjoy the bitterness of life?. If there is maybe his/her life is so much sugar or maybe they have no sugar stocks so frankly say yes is the only one option left. Then what? We can still grocery shop or something. There is no one and only option. We can make options if we do want it, if we are clear to see it.

I think I write a lot random things like jelly tots. But note this one. There is no excuse when we have to interfere a cup of coffee belongs to someone else with our own recipe. Because it is a cup of your coffee, enjoy it! While this is mine.

Don’t forget your morning coffee!

Rahmat Arif Febriyanto

I've always wanted to go

"...Baby I'm from New York!
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of,
There's nothing you can't do
 Now you're in New York!..."

Wait. Hold on. Before you judge me or something. This is totally different with nationalism, well i talk about something different. Again, something different :)

Talking about my last year in high school, reminded me of my dream to go to New York. My close friends already knew this is due to broadway, some brands (lol), skyscrapers, and glee ... but wait it's not about NYADA, of course I know that NYADA doesn't really exist or just fiction in glee. The rest is this is about my future education.

There is my dream university out there, and it's located in New York, it's called Columbia University. I really want to study journalism and business there. When i read this Our faculty, a diverse group of award-winning professionals, work closely with students to provide a foundation for our graduates to become leaders in a fast-changing news media, it makes me like okay i want it so bad, i have to go. it's about journalism school out there, this thing can be my stepping stone to be a part of Fox.

I have a silly idea, that by the time I get married and have child, I want to move to new york when my child is 4 years old. I don't know why it should be so, but I just wanted to, and it's only ambition, It can be changed.

When i see my seniors graduated two days ago, i just thought that there are a bunch of things i need to do before my graduation next year. I wish i have accapted by one of my dream-university in Indonesia before the graduation day. I can achieve some "goods" again in my final year, and graduate from high school without regrets, and i can hear my family and my close people say "I'm proud of u" again. 


Wish Allah always by my side and help my every single effort, and set happy days for me and family, also my friends. amien, :)

Time Out.

I don't know why, but it was always like this. When i close to the last year, surely the time will be felt very quickly. Like yesterday was the first year. I'm totallly a messed right now. It's really hard to deal with my feeling. yes, i'm happy because after this will be the college or university time. But just list all the things i have to pass-through in order to happily end this year and done with all the stuffs without regrets.

It little bit makes me freak out or something, but wait it doesn't mean i can't believe on myself. I just get shocked by the shocking time lol. The time was too rush, and such a hurry. It's hard to figure out when the condition talks about t.i.m.e, it's something out of our control and can be worst if we don't use it wisely.

Talking about final year or 12th grade, i will make a list consists of things i need to do, i have to do, and i want to do. Of course i don't want to be a jerk in this final year. I'll try my best to gain all my dreams and to actualize all my plans. I will leave my unimportant or time-wasted stuffs during this final year.

Anyway, i was little bit confused when i first wrote this feature and put the title. Why Time Out? i think it because this is my really final year after preschool, kindergarten, elementary school, and junior high school. It's such an exciting thing to realize that no longer for me for a new life. Colleger's life, thats so cool! can't hardly wait for that. Hopefully it can bring more funny stuffs than my life in senior high. 

Mmm... honestly i write this feature in midnight, it's about 11.30pm and sorry if maybe my imagination about this topic is messed up or something, but i'm still exciting for the brand new life after high school lol. I think all my friends will heve the different thoughts about this. And ya, this is my own :p

Dear Ayik

How's life ? How's your 17-years-old-days? several months left for your birthday, it's about two months, that's so cool!, but you know what i used to wish you all the best, and i hope you always try to be the better me all the time.

mm.... anyway, how's your 12th grade year ? is that good ? i hope so. I believe you always try your best to face all the exams and "the stuffs". Please, i beg you, don't ever look back!. Just deal with your upcoming future. Look, i'm the person who know you much than anyone else. Forget all the pains!, you'll be paid for all your efforts.

I know that several things darkened your days this pas 8 or 9 months, but who knows the reasons of God to gave you those kind of challenges, You'll be a big man soon, a big man with all your dreams come true and God pays your efforts. I trust you more than my past. You'll graduate from high school and continue your study in your favorite university. Don't miss your whole-life-dream to go to New York and get a chance to study in Yale.

What you need to do now is keep your own coffee (red: life) and don't let anyone put some unknown stuffs there, don't let them interfare your own if it will make you mess. If you're now a messed after all that you've been through, just figure out a to find the pieces of the puzzle to fit your life again.

I think too much now, as you know i'm over thinker. So ah, i need to end this letter, and sum this up with your reply when your dreams one by one come true. I'm glad to talk to myself in 8 or 9 months later. Again, this is unusual for me to write on myself but that's so cool! lol. Oke, maybe now i have to end this letter, thanks for give me some pieces of your crowd-scheduled-time. I will always wish you for the best. Good luck with your all stuffs, see ya in our bright future, (amien...)

From deeply thoughts and feelings,
Ayik in the past

May Spring

                                                                          ... the final year will come soon ...

besties !

Miss 'em so bad !
It has been almost 2 months since the last holidays.
I miss my hometown, my house and the people and all my besties. Since i went to a boarding school in other town, i got the distance issues !
My days with my best friends are always be the good times. And ya, i don't really care about the friendship tales told by drama-movies, because i already have one there which probably be the best that i ever had.
What i miss the most is the time, the real quality times. They are kind of down-to-earth kids! They always have their times, They used to release their silly laughs and always made my day.

Let me to to tell you about them.
they are some of my besties,
from left to right.
Ebiet, Noby, Renny, and me

Ebiet.
is a kind of boy who addicted with design graphics. So do i, actually. But he has become an expert, and i still need to learn so much. He is also Afgan's fan. Afgan used to drive this boy crazy! lol.

Noby.
Trust me, she's absolutely cool! A basketball-girl-player. With a boyish style, she's so funny and she gave us the best jokes sometimes. She's also a dancer.

Renny.
She's the most fashionable girl around us. She has some brand(ed) stuffs. But, the note is all the people have to be aware to be close with this girl in tense-condition. Because, she will turn as a wild-kid, she's easy to be panic and think too much all the times. But she's the most humble girl i ever met.

Opi'.
She's the one who wore black t-shirt.
She's a dancer, pretty cool girl. Ya, she used to talk much than us. But she's the most kind-hearted girl. She sometimes invites us to have lunch for free. lol. She's also a shopping line owner and we still can't hardly wait for the disc. lol. (Again) no. we are friends not because of that, it just because she's nice and we have several things to think around.

This is us! with a kinda silly laughs-out-loud.  >>

oh ya, actually there's one more. A boy named Amsyah.

Amsyah.
He's a boy who has obsession to become a professional photographer and sometimes he used us as his trial objects. He doesn't like to be captured, but he love to captures something or someone else. That's why he rarely appears in our pictures.

And here we go
<<<
Amsyah.

Can't hardly wait for this coming holidays.

Can't hardly wait to tell them a bunch of stories. 

And you guys are the most cool besties i ever knew ! 

Thanks for the time,

And, sorry readers, if this is too personal. lol.

But i bet u have this kind of best friends as well. 

So just keep them by your side :)   
See ya, i'll be home in this coming middle of April !

No regrets ! for being a best friend

I've watched several movies about friendship, and honestly all the endings of the movies are always easily predicted by me That's why, it's hard to choose which movie that really impressed me. And when I asked my roommate, he reminded me of a movie which I didn't watch because I chose another movie two years ago. it's called Bridge to Terabithia.

 Synopsis : 

This movie (2007) tells us about a couple of  ten-year-old kids, Jess Aarons and Leslie Burke.The story was based on the original novel, and the story was truely happened to the childhood of the author's son. That was the another reason for tears if u watch this movie.

Jesse is a fifth-grade and live in Lark Creek, Virginia where he meets new student named Leslie Burke and they soon become a best friend. Both of them dont have any friends in their school.

One day after school, Leslie dares Jesse to run as fast as they can 'till they reach a river in forest and find  abandoned tree house and a broken down truck on the other side. And after all, they create a new world named Terabithia by Leslie, it's kind of fantasy world where Jesse and Leslie become its king and queen. They do many things in Terabithia, such as repairing the tree house.

The following day, Jesse is invited by his teacher to visit a museum in downtown, and he decides not to invite Leslie to come. When Jesse in museum, Leslie goes to Terabithia by herself, and she gets accident and drown because the rope is broken as the rope is too old and the river is flooding. Jesse's parent guess that jesse is drowned as well as he didn't tell that he goes with his teacher.

Jesse's parent is glad when Jesse comes home, and Jesse gets shock when he know about the accident and Leslie passed away. He regrets all the time because he didn't ask Leslie to come with him, and when Jesse and his family come to Leslie's house as a respect. Leslie's dad tells him that Leslie loved him, and it's not his fault. 

After all, Jesse tries to re-imagine Terabithia and builds a bridge with a sign "Nothing Crushes Us" across the creek to enter Terabithia. And invites his sister, May Belle as the princess.

I'd love this part :

for sure, this movie will drive you crazy or probably insane ! who don't want a best friend like that in this world. We can share everything to them, our shoulder to tear all the pains, our laughs and many things..

This movie consists of a bunch of inspirational scenes, that makes me have to keep my true friends, and feel glad to still have them by my side right now. Or maybe i have to change several-bad-things in me to be a best friend for my best friends. 

 Most of all, i'd adore this scene ! 

Mirror and Reflection (2012 - 2013)

In a previous post I have been told that I'm not the type of person who likes to make resolutions for New Year. But I tend to make corrections and try not to make the same mistakes in the new year. I'm not the one who let all of the things flow. But I just want to live happily and regardless as long as I've tried.

I have some plans and desires in 2013, I do not know is more inclined to include a resolution or correction again. Maybe you can help to determine.

Many people describe life as a wheel, sometimes above and sometimes below. There is also someone say that life is like oranges, if you can't definitely take or choose the right one you will get the sour. I now the world doesn't lack of philosophers or poets. But I feel, life does not mean how we think it, but how we feel it, especially feel like we proud for being who we are . Life is not like a shirt that has the size, life can be for whatever we want and expect. Therefore, now I feel I need a plan to start a new life.

Of course I've learned a lot from last year and now I feel that I'm already on the right track and I had to through the track by believing in myself and started to fulfill all  my plans.

Here me go. list of my plans in 2013 that made up because of everything happened last year and these plans will continue even later was no longer 2013:

1. Be happily ever after with my family.
2. Be a good son for my father and a good brother for my little sister
3. Remedials. I'd love to come back as junior high school again, never got remedial and always got score above the standart. I will study harder to gain this.
4. Good Exam Scores. I will study harder for this (again).
5. Achieve more achievements. Especially for my recent competitions, journalist competition again. Wish me luck.
6. Continue my study to my favorite university (UGM).
7. Continue study abroad.
8. Improve my voice,
9. Do some covers
10. Release my very first outfit post.
11. Be more resilient to face defeat and stay humble when get victory
12. Be nice to everyone.
13. Regretless. because i believe everything happened for a reason.
14. Be positive.
15. Be true to who am i.

That's all. By the time run my plans for the better me and my life will increase by itself

Don't Want An Ending

"...I don't wanna fall out
 But we're all out of time (Is this over?)
 (Don't want an ending)..."

Talking about last year, in 2012 it was like opening an old photo albums that have been put in boxes in a warehouse. And all that albums were selected which should be removed and saved.

The beginning of 2012  was a nice day because it is still the same as ever. In 2012 I learned so much about life. Especially before stepping on the end of the year. I feel so me at the beginning of 2012. I feel that it should have a pleasant feeling.

January. I could say it was fun with knick knacks of new year eve and resolutions. Actually I'm not the type of person who likes to make resolutions but when someone asks about it, I started it up. And the most typical of this month is the sound of trumpets, fireworks and being around the family. That's sweet!.


February. I was tired of drama and i was tired with february. Why?  I had too much bullied, cheated or whatever what it is called. Which obviously it causes resentment but that's also fun, The february of 2012 was my 5th real birthday. It isn't sucks to be me but i just proud of who am i and how i was born and as who. How I was bullied? First, a dozen of my friends in the class caught me at gym class and tied me in a palm tree and threw me with flour mixture, something like a mush. And i can't imagine the texture. Second, My housemates were pranking me by taking my laptop and hid in one of the suitcases in the room and well at the time I really need my lovely laptop for blog competition. But technically I like the way they celebrate a special and rare-day of my life. And honestly it made ​​me cry a bit much. Don't laugh at me for a second after you read this. 


March. There was nothing special going on in March, but there were exams that kept me busy. Especially midterm. I was able to control my days for exam preparation at that time. And finally I get a pretty similar marks with marks that I expected.


April. April mop didn't apply in my life. Why? there was no reason for me to do so. So, there was still nothing special happened, exception for examinations and minor issues which are reasonable.

Spring January 2013

New year eve...

-Vampire-

If i will be vampire, lol. I just can't stop laugh-out-loud when write this post.
It didn't mean i have no idea to write about this topic, but honestly i'm inspired by Twillight saga, Vampire Diaries serial and when i was tumblr-ing and i found Marilyn Manson's song "If I Was Your Vampire" :)

Vampire known by their charisma of darkness. That's cool.
Yes. the views of vampire has changed. First vampire depicted with a glamour castle, long dress and royal robes. But now the 21st century vampire portrayed in a suit and cool clothes to show that they are not left behind by civilizations and they present around us.
If i will be a vampire, I will do many things that no human being can do. Every vampire has their own skill and ability, they can see the future, the past and read people's minds.
If i will be a vampire, I probably would never have regrets. why? because i was able to fix all my mistakes next year, five years again, even decades longer. lol.
If i will be a vampire, I'd decided to be a vegetarian vampire, because ya how's the taste to drink human blood as food?
but the most importantly, if i will be a vampire, maybe I will not get separated from my family, because if i will be a vampire, of course, before me, my family was a family of vampires. lol :D
just take care then... haha

A Math Geek //

If i am a math. geek, I certainly won't feel a deep burden when calculating.

All formulas will feel like block notation which i should memorize it with cheerful tones.
How happy, if I am a math geek, 100 on the report card for math lessons will not be difficult.
I'll just nodded in agreement, sign that i really understand what math teachers say,
if i am a math geek. x and y will just like friends for me, maybe. Maybe i will talk in phytagoras formula language. lol.
It named addicted. If i am a math geek, surely i will sit in the front seats and always be the first to raised my hand when the teacher asked.
How happy! if i am a math geek, I'm probably going to be the most presentable students throughout the school, because statistics formulas and laws thaught me to be a melancholy, how to sort everything from small to large, or put it all on the right axis.
If i am a math geek, i will never complain to describe algebra problems. And maybe i will be the most careful, cautious, or somethin because probability chapter prepared me to be like that, smart to read a possibility that will happen.
Or maybe if i am a math geek, i won't sigh when math-hours began and math teachers bring practice-paper-questions that are nearly a dozen. hahh
But it all if i am a math geek. In fact I am still a victim of math. lol. why victim? Ya. Because i have to turn my brain to right or left, up and down, to find my own answer. *yawn*.
Okay, Just, If i am a math geek

If i were lyrics. {Lyrical}

"Lyrics (in singular form lyric) are a set of words that make up a song, usually consisting of verses and choruses.....The meaning of lyrics can either be explicit or implicit. Some lyrics are abstract, almost unintelligible, and, in such cases, their explication emphasizes form, articulation, meter, and symmetry of expression....." Uncle google said.

Many of you might ask when reading the title of this post, why should lyrics?
Have you ever feel like a human with The Least freedom in the world? if yes, you need to know if i ever felt that. It feels like you can't breathe even though there are tons of oxygen around you. lol.

That's why I want to be lyrics.
Lyrics are the freest element and beautiful composition in this world.
Lyrics have too many rights to argue. Even so, there is no one to protest lyrics. Why? Because lyrics argue in their own way, every their single words accompanied by beautiful tone, pitch and rythm that can make your vein drain more blood smoothly.

{If i were lyrics}
I'm going to comment on anything that doesn't fit with me. There will be no people protesting me back or hurted by my comments because I commented to that things with my beauty one and a half octave and an irreversible rhyme. cool!
People will just give me a standing ovation when I was protesting them, talk to them (i don't know whether it will be bad or good). They have been addicted to the instruments that accompany me, and forget about me (lyrics)Ya. I understood. being invisible is sometimes unpleasant. But, So what? if i were lyrics, i would much fine. Everyone will adore me, and I just gave them letters a-z which I create randomly, and they loved it.
Again. If i were lyrics. I would not be ashamed to cry in public, laughing out loud in a crowded place, saying: "I love someone" in the middle of the city, or saying: "I hate someone" in front of the someone. Because they will still adore me.
And. If i were lyrics. I would be very grateful to make friend with music (notes, rhythm, instruments), thanks for always with me to face and deal with the fals, the biggest problem in my life.

Nov. Spring

Begin with :) (a smile). Ya today i'll continue my Spring Project

Why the pic above must be a dream catcher ?, bcos my writing related with my dreams

This November Spring will tell you more about myself,

who i am, what i want to be, up to... If i were -something. lol.

hope you pals like it ! :)

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A cup of coffee

LIFE. something that is very common to pin down. Everything feels abstract when we begin to describe it. As though all the secrets and logics collected into single subject. How does it feel? Actually, that's life. A time when the questions of -what, -why, and -how are favorite.

Life is not always in the "X" axis (Read: Flat). There are always salty and sweet. Like a cup of hot coffee in the afternoon, life would be beautiful when everything is placed at the appropriate time and in the right portions. We have to believe in ourselves when putting our own sugar in coffee, do not be afraid of sweetness, which is why taking risks is sometimes necessary in life.

Sometimes, we felt the hot sting on the tongue when tasting our own coffee, everyone has their own way to express it. So is life, everyone has his/her own way to be against problems in life. No need to get upset. Not too sad. Everything is up. It is called the abstraction of life. 

Satisfied is time when we can spend our coffee without getting a bitter taste of the dregs at the end. In life, it does not mean we only dare to play in the safe zone. But. That hope in life. Is there a man who consciously say yes! to enjoy the bitterness of life?. If there are people like that, maybe his/her life is full and tired of the sweetness of sugar. Or does not have sensitivity to his/her own destiny. Or maybe their sugar stocks run out. Or ...... (something).

There is no excuse when we have to interfere a cup of coffee belongs to someone else with our own recipe. Because it is a cup of your coffee, enjoy it!. While this is mine.

Half A Life

"...By the time you think you've figured out the logic of life, that's when life plays itself back into an unexpected direction and you will become objects of the universe joke."  Supernova 3 - Petir (Dee)

Lesson From Life (Called : LOVE)

Thanks Ⓜarty for the inspiration

Learn something from our life, for a better everything (always) tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, and...

L.I.F.E

"Life is a game, Play it!
Life is an adventure, Dare it!
Life is life, Fight for it!"

OCTOBER SPRING !

Hy pals !!! :)
Now is time for SPRING (again)
I guess this Spring will be more unique and...
Just wait for my new posts of October Spring :D

Learn each other

Photo by Domislava

Every people in the world definitely has their drawbacks and abilities. Task for people themselves is to make it all turn as their strenght. So is the teacher, even though he was chasing but he/she certainly has his/her drawbacks. Then, should students allowed to grade their teachers ? Did it really work or just make an impression of impolitely attitudes.

Nowadays, people have to socialize with their society. Just like a school, where there are students and teachers, they should respect and appreciate each other. How to show our appreciation? Could it be just like saying Thank you, Good Job or something else ? No. we can do that like Habit 5 Seek First to Understand, Then to be Understood which written by Stephen R. Covey (1989) in "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People". In 7 Habits, especially Habit 5 Stephen R. Covey told that "we have to use empathic listening to be genuinely influenced by a person, which compels them to reciprocate the listening and take an open mind to being influenced by you. This creates an atmosphere of caring, respect, and positive problem solving.". When a student grading his/her teachers, it doesn't mean that he/she doing something impolite or showing a bad attitude. It's all about examining.To make an atmosphere of caring and respect, we should listen each other, make it as our mirror and reflection, and then try to be better.

When people ask us, should students allowed to grade their teacher? It doesn't a matter actually. It's not make a distance between students and teachers. Indeed, it can become a bridge between students and teachers. Students absolutely have to learn from their teachers. But, the teachers also should to learn from their pupils. Critics, comments or sugestion, even more grades from students suppose to be benchmarks for teachers, whether their performance during class is really good or not. It can also show whether students really understood about their materials given by their teachers or not.

Photo by good luck

Learn each other, especially in a school, moreover in a class is surely needed by teachers and students. It can make a lovely atmosphere around the class. Every single person has to accept all critics, comments, sugestions and grades with pleasure and wisely. Because just wise people want to be a better individual in every their single minutes. (ayk)